Teeny tiny pity party...which isn't so teeny tiny

Life: So school is school.  My classes are not interesting at all and I'm just counting the days until I'm done.  I got one of my tests back from the last week and I got an 86%.  I'm happy with that considering I did not know what to focus on while I was studying and thought I failed the test!  I get my Developmental Pscyh test back on Tuesday and then sometime next week or the week after get my essay exam back for History of Ideas. 

So this week I've really been missing Colorado.  I want to move back there so much.  I'm considering talking to Kyle about moving right after I'm done with school, but I don't know if either of us is ready for that.  I'd be really sad to leave all of my friends and family behind, but I just can't stay here anymore.  California never felt like my home, just a place I was staying until I could get back to Colorado.  I miss fall and the changing leaves, the crisp air, snow, spring when all the flowers would come out again, and summers that aren't 100 degrees.  

The remodel will be officially moving indoors this week, so that should be interesting.  We'll have to find places to move the furniture and I might be spending a few nights at Kyle's while my room gets worked on.  I'm most excited about the kitchen.  I can't wait to see what the finished product will look like. :)

Oh, on Friday Kyle and I had a date night. :)  We went to Black Angus (which was sooooo good!) and then to the movies to see Looper.  It was a little too violent for me.  I couldn't watch a bunch of the scenes.  Overall, though it was a nice evening, especially since I hadn't seen Kyle since the previous Friday.

Excited for a delicious dinner at Black Angus!

Meet Ricky Rico, the adorable frog Katrina rescued and then we released back into the wild!

Wedding: Okay, so I know that I am always going to be the one who is most excited about the wedding, but I wish my family would at least sometimes acknowledge that they're aware I'm getting married.  I know life is crazy for my parents right now with the remodel and that has their focus, but I would really love to start doing wedding related things.  For instance, I want to go wedding dress shopping so very badly!!  I see so many beautiful gowns and I just want to see what they would look like on me so I can figure out the exact style I'm looking for.  I also really want my family and Kyle's family to meet, but that seems to be impossible to arrange.  They never seem to be available at the same time.  It's so frustrating.  ..... I just keep waiting for things to feel real.  With nothing happening it still just feels like before when Kyle and I were dating and would talk about our wedding day.  I also really wish my parents would actually tell me what my budget is.  Saying, "find out what things cost and we'll figure it out" is NOT helpful!! I can't work with that.  I really, really appreciate that they are paying for the wedding, but it's almost more frustrating because I can't make any decisions since they're never available/want to talk about the wedding.  Each day, I'm more and more inclined to just take a weekend trip with Kyle somewhere and get married.  I just wish my family was more excited about this..... Okay, end rant.

Weight:
I lost again this week!! I'm so excited!  Went on two more 5 mile walks and they both felt so good!  Tomorrow, Katrina and I are going to a Zumba class and then I plan on going on three walks this week.  Hopefully that will result in more weight lost!  I calculated it out and if I lose a pound a week I'll reach my weight goal by my goal date.  (130 lbs by January 1st, 2013).  If not though, I won't be heartbroken.  A pound a week is kind of a tall order.  As long as I'm my goal weight by my final dress fitting, I'll be good. (Of course, at this rate, that won't be until like a month before the wedding)  Oh! I also lost a little in inches, so that's good. :)  So here are the stats for this week:

Starting weight: 144.4 lbs

September 30th, 2012: 143.6 lbs (-0.4 lbs from last week)

waist: 26.25 in (-0.25 in from last month)
thigh: 23.50 in (+0.25 in)
bicep: 11.00 in (-0.25 in)
hips: 35.00 in (-0.75 in)
chest: 34.00 in (-0.25 in)

Success! in school and weight loss

Life:
School is getting crazy!! So happy that it's close to being over. I did get an A on my first paper and test this semester.  I'll let you know what I got on the test I took on Sunday and the test today when I get the scores.  And the test I'm taking tomorrow.

Oh, we're doing a remodel at our house and everything is crazy!  We redid our deck attached to our house, are going to redo the deck by our pool, our kitchen, and our family room (adding a wet bar and wine fridge).  We are also painting the whole house, inside and out, adding wood floors and tile where we currently have carpet, and replacing all the windows and sliding glass doors...

Wedding:
This past friday marked 1 year until the wedding!  It's exciting, but before this point I kept saying "I have over a year to do ____" Not anymore!  It's slightly stressful.  There are moments when I just feel like eloping and forgoing the craziness of planning a wedding.  I'm sure my parents would be happy about that. ; )

So aside from picking colors, a date, and location, I haven't done any planning.  Because of the remodel at our house, my parents are so preoccupied that I feel bad bringing up the wedding (yet another expense they'd have to think about).  Hopefully I'll be able to get some planning done soon...

Weight:
Yay! Lost that pesky weight that I gained the other week!  I finally started exercising that it felt really good!  One of my good friends Katrina got me going on walks again! I've gone on two 5 mile walks so far and I'm hoping to make it a tri-weekly thing.  I'm thinking Tuesday, Thursday, and Saturday.  With Zumba classes on Mondays.  Sadly, I'm out of commission for the rest of this week because I have a blister on my foot, but as soon as that is healed I will be back out there!  So, so happy to have my motivation back!

Starting weight: 144.4 lbs
September 23rd, 2012: 144.0 lbs (-2.3 lbs from last week!)

1 year from today...

In exactly 1 year Kyle and I will be getting married!!!! I cannot wait to call him "husband." : )

I love him so much.

Nothing much

Life:

So school all of a sudden got crazy! I had a paper due this past Sunday (which I got an A on!), I had a test today, I have an online test on Sunday, a test on Monday, and a test on Tuesday.  And I’m sure I have another paper due soon that I’m forgetting about.  So glad it is my last semester!

Kyle and I have been apartment hunting lately, but haven’t fallen in love with any place yet.  Not to mention that housing is so expensive here!  Just one more reason I want to move!

Wedding:

Not much has happened.  I think next week some time we are going to meet with a travel agent to discuss options for our honeymoon.  Otherwise, nothing new.  Wedding decisions have been put on the back burner for a bit while I’m in school.  Although, one thing I want to start doing soon is looking for a dress.

Weight:

Okay, so I don’t know what happened the other week, but that 3 pounds I gained hasn’t gone away.  I don’t know what I did differently, but I’m not happy about it.

Start weight: 144.4 lbs
September 16, 2012: 146.3 lbs (-0.2 lbs) <I think I’ll keep that feature around, adding how much I’ve gained or loss during the week, not just what I weight.

I was trying to find a fun picture to add to this post and stumbled across this one. I really miss my short, red hair!!!

A little blue...

Life: So I can’t quite seem to motivate myself this semester…I blame this on it being my final semester.  I started the semester on a strong note, I read required readings before class, but now I would rather sit and watch tv or search for wedding stuff online when I come home.  I’m tired and the last thing I want to do is use my brain. ;) 

This past Friday was my sister’s 23^rd birthday and it was fun.  I spent the day with her and my mom.  We went for coffee in the morning (I got a smoothie since I don’t like coffee), did some browsing in town, made cupcakes, went out to lunch, went shopping, decorated the cupcakes, then went out to dinner.  All around a very nice day.  The next day a friend of Kyle’s threw a surprise party for her husband at Kyle’s house and that was fun, though exhausting.  Sunday I pretty much just relaxed and it was wonderful!

Lately I’ve been kind of bummed.  I’ve slowly been realizing that I don’t have friends I can relate to.  It seems like I’m at a stage in my life that others have already gone through or haven’t gotten to yet.  Right now, all of my friends are either married and starting families or are in serious relationships that haven’t quite reached the marriage stage yet.  I wish I had friends who were in this transition stage from relationship to marriage.  I’m so excited about planning my wedding, but don’t really have anyone to talk to about it.  I feel like those who aren’t engaged don’t really want to talk about it and those who are married look at me like, oh, that’s cute, I’m already well past that.  I feel like everyone I know has some close friend they can confide in and who is at the same stage in life, and I don’t and sometimes it’s frustrating.  Sometimes I just want to go back to high school when all of my friends were here and we were all going through the same things.  ……… But that’s just me feeling sorry for myself.  Also, I just realized I have no followers on this blog...sad day.

Wedding:  Okay, so now for the uplifting part.  :) Kyle and I are going to take our engagement pictures up in Julian and I’m so excited!! My friend Kathryn will be taking the pictures and I’m looking forward to what she’ll do.  I’m hoping to take them in an apple orchard, but only if I can find one that will let us use the orchard for free.  If we can’t do that, I’m thinking just some fun pictures throughout town as well as some more on the outskirts near some wooded area or something.  We’ll be taking them in October/November, whenever it starts to get cold and the leaves start to change.  I want to bundle up for these pictures. :)  For now, I need to start looking for something cute to wear!

Weight:  This past week was not so kind to me and one of the reasons I didn’t post this on Sunday.  I’ve been avoiding documenting my weight.  I gained 3 pounds this week!  It was so disheartening when I stepped on the scale and saw that…  Now it really shouldn’t have been because I hadn’t done anything to lose weight, but I also didn’t think I did anything unusual to make me gain that weight.  Oh well, I guess this week is a new week.  Though, I don’t think I’m doing well this week either.  I cannot motivate myself to workout.  It has been so hot lately and I completely shut down when it’s hot.  I can’t function.  I hate the hot weather.  If it never got above 70 degrees again I would be a happy camper.  I love the cold.  I thrive in the cold….. Anyway, the moral of this is that I need to put in more effort to lose this weight so I can feel good about myself for my wedding and after.  Here’s to hoping I find the motivation!

Start weight: 144.4 lbs
September 9^th, 2012: 146.5 lbs :(